Degenerate fiend from hell, emerging from an unbroken spell.
What have I become? Looking in the mirror I can’t even tell.

I’m sure we’ve noticed, all of those times/
When promises were filled with just empty rhymes//
And it’s like, all the negative feelings combined/
Your heart trapped, in the world of the outside//
In one moment, your whole life could change/
One action, and the whole world seems deranged//
Left gets right, and right becomes the strange/
And it speaks, as if it has something to say//

I have so much on my mind, but I just can’t form my thoughts into words that fully express what’s rushing through my head at the moment.

Days go by, and you’re still gone.
Sitting here, asking myself, “Can I really go on?”
Time flies by, and you’re never here.
Every second that passes, the world sheds a tear.
We’ll always remember your name
Etched in our hearts, obtained your own fame.
Missed but never forgotten.
Gone but never lost and.
Your soul sings high, in our minds
Resonate deeply from the other side.
Always thought, you’d never leave.
But we always focus on our wants, not needs.
Left us a message when you departed.
Seeing what’s in front of us is always the hardest.
Was blinded but now I see.
Everything I need was right in front of me.

RIP..Those who have departed.

Carved my own destructive path, slowly eroding my soul away/
Eaten by the demons lurking within the shadow searching for strays//
The valley of the shadow of death, becomes a small price to pay/
When your own shadow follows your path for an eternal stay//
For I am the hypocrite that they forever damned to the stake/
The witch they burned in the fire in my condemned state//
“Repent and reform, my child,” the voice would always say/
“Can I truly?” I reply, guilt-ridden in my cowardly shame//

1 John 1:9-10
If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness. If we claim we have not sinned, we make him out to be a liar and his word has no place in our lives.

I wake up, and I thank God for a new day/
New tomorrow away from yesterday’s pains//
I get outta bed, and thank Him for a new morning/
That most can’t see cause their minds are storming//
Name ain’t in the obituary, so I’m still alive/
Just gimme strength for this new day to survive//
Just stop and start to smell the fresh nature/
And realize that the whole world doesn’t really hate ya//
Life is just something most take for granted/
It’s a blessing and a gift that’s handed//
To us, something we can truly treasure/
And materialistic wealth isn’t something to measure//
The worth of one’s life, a tangible success/
It’s made of one’s love extending out to the rest//
So next time you’re down and grieving/
Just remember, that you’re still alive and breathing//

Mixed memories, dwell within this entity/
Thoughts intricately, become my own enemy//
Give me an elixir, to cure me of this mixture/
Just one sip, to rid me of the random pictures//
Give me a new tomorrow, one without the sorrow/
Maybe one with borrowed joy, instead of wallows//
In misery, give me a path to walk on leisurely/
Away from this grizzly world of pain obtained easily//
Fork in the road, but which direction should I go/
A third path shows, but how can I really know//
Which is the fake, for my good soul’s sake/
But just let me take, one giant leap of faith//
A peace of mind, gift from the heavenly divine/
Rain or shine, life is never a straight line//
In search of myself, in a place called hell/
Where the devil dwells, found my soul I could never sell//

Acid rain showers, eroding cheeks like baseless towers/
Pray in the hour of death, raindrops tasting sour//
Journey to what’s ahead, towards the flower bed/
Paradise that’s said, fulfilled with food of wine and bread//
Felt helpless, yet rejected the help of the selfless/
Oblivious to selfish, fleeing the problems to be dealt with//
Going through the motions, corrosion of emotions/
Roughly flowing, as the heart faces erosion//
Crack the mask, we wear to hide the facts/
Covering what we had, becoming a vast black//
Let me reveal, all along what I feel/
Forever sealed, released to the world as an appeal//
Smirk or a smile, to vanquish the guile/
Joys become trials, because we’ve all become senile//
Smell the flowers so pure, a dance to ensure/
Something assured, simple can become the simplest of cures//

Questions unanswered, and never taken chances/
Now unsettling spreading cancer, exchanging glances//
Between lies and truth, blurred from the vermouth/
Destiny becomes uncouth, it can’t always be what we choose//
You always wonder, why you have to suffer/
Voice of thunder, asking, “Why not another”//
Taken for granted, something you branded/
Yours with your own hands, but lost what you enamored//
And time never stops, even on dead clocks/
Ticking until bombs drop, craters from large rocks//
See what you never had, because you were blind in the past/
It’ll never come back, so cherish them before they’re passed//
A new discovery, that life delicately/
Hangs balancing, on a string severing//
So take a small moment, to dearly hold it/
Life just behold it and love just show it//

I becomes we.  We become you.  For those who are searching.

Thought I broke free from the chains, but I ended up back from where I came/
Waiting for something that’ll never be the same, like I’m trying to arrange//
And alter destiny for a change, but in the process, became something deranged/
And I wait impatiently in the rain, pellets on my skin, numb to the pain//
I wish it was true, like that saying, I’m going against the grain/
But I’m trapped with nothing to gain, chasing what makes me insane//

But I’ll never stop. I’ll look away. As it’s staring at me. In my face/
The truth will never.  Never fade. But I disregard it. Until that day//

Thank you for everything.  You made 2010 memorable.

Friends:

Best friends:

True that.

(Source: kollar-bonez)